one of the first things<\/p>\n
you said to me<\/p>\n
as unexplained<\/p>\n
as the last<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0I said yuck. Something about a variety of frames.<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Something about the way you were standing on<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0that stool while I knelt below. The mouldings were<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0all gold and you looked at me with that fierce and<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0present stare.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Something about the way you asked me to repeat<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0the phrase. Something about the way you turned<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0away from me in consideration, only to ask if I\u2019d<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0ever read STILL LIFE OF A WOODPECKER.<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n
(I\u2019m eager to listen. So eager.)<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n
But when I ask, when I say – no – why?<\/p>\n
you say – just a – just a book. You say it with a\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n
stammer. Something about the way your voice\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n
trails off. The pause in the sentence.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
something about unmasking. something about a girl named Leigh-Cheri.<\/p>\n
something about the moon. something about HIDING AND SEEKING.<\/p>\n
I google the book and come up with this excerpt that<\/p>\n
resonates, though I don\u2019t know if it did for you, in that<\/p>\n
moment. <\/p>\n
And I may never.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
some folks hide and some folks seek, and seeking<\/p>\n
when it\u2019s mindless, neurotic, desperate, or<\/p>\n
pusillanimous can be a form of hiding. But there are<\/p>\n
folks who want to know and aren\u2019t afraid to look<\/p>\n
and won\u2019t turn tail should they find it — and if they<\/p>\n
never do, they\u2019ll have a good time anyway because<\/p>\n
nothing. neither the terrible truth nor the absence of<\/p>\n
it, is going to cheat them out of one honest breath of<\/p>\n
earth\u2019s sweet grass.<\/p>\n
\u00a0<\/p>\n
I guess I feel like I\u2019m hiding around you. I don\u2019t feel like I<\/p>\n
need to come out (of hiding). And when you don\u2019t explain<\/p>\n
your reference I sense something akin to hiding in you too.<\/p>\n
There\u2019s closeness without<\/p>\n
Intention.<\/p>\n\n\n
Mae<\/strong> is a queer human, two-time art school graduate, and avid reader currently residing in the Pacific Northwest. Sun in Aquarius, Moon in Aries, Virgo Rising. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" one of the first things you said to me as unexplained as the last \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0I said yuck. Something about a variety of frames. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Something about the way you were standing on \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0that stool while I knelt below. The mouldings<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":384,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[9926],"tags":[22243],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1124"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/384"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1124"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1124\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2179,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1124\/revisions\/2179"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1124"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1124"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1124"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}