\u201cNever put clothes in drawer,\u201d Nana scolded me. She had come to visit for my thirteenth birthday. \u201cIf they\u2019re in drawer, how can get out?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She smacked the top of my hand, then made me lift my arms and stuck her nose in my pit. She sniffed. \u201cGood,\u201d she said, thumping my head. \u201cAlmost ready.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHey,\u201d I said. \u201cI\u2019m no melon.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cQuiet,\u201d she said.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She took out a red plaid wool shirt that smelled sharp like my first pee in the morning.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cUnbutton top buttons for shirt on hangars. Shirts need air so they can fly and find you strange women.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I cringed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cBe man,\u201d she said. \u201cListen.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She explained my grandfather was a boarder in her mother\u2019s house. He was from the farms. Lice jumped off him in such multitudes that he looked fuzzy. Her father made him sleep in the barn. Each night, before my grandfather went to bed, he left his tan corduroy jacket in her house, saying it was his only good garment.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIt festered and stank,\u201d Nana said. \u201cI don\u2019t think he had touched bar of soap ever. Food rotted between his teeth. Wax crusted in his ear. My mother want to dip this jacket in lye and him with it, but I hide it in my closet. Every night, the jacket came to me and I sat up in bed like Bride of Frankenstein monster and holding arms out to receive its sleeves. It slid on top of me, so my breasts pressed against soft satin of back lining. And then it buttoned its top button. Only top button though. Jackets were gentlemanly in these days. Not like today. At first this smell gagged me, but this lining was so comforting and cool. Soon I grew to know this smell, to search for it among my village, beyond smoke and soot and shit.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She said \u201cshit\u201d like it would cover a bed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cWhen he left, I followed smell over ocean until I find it again here and marry your reeking grandfather.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I hung the plaid shirt in the closet and smiled.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cYou laugh from other side of face, bub. It\u2019s truth.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSo where\u2019s the jacket now?\u201d I asked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHere,\u201d she said. She rolled up a floral sleeve. The skin hung off her arm like wet paper. She pointed to the sunspots on her bare arm. I could see it was not skin but blackened holes where the corduroy had worn away.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
*<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Downstairs, my mother called me to light the cake. After I blew out the candles, Nana handed me a rectangular coat box. \u201cOpen later,\u201d she said and then told my father to take her home. My father agreed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Before she went to bed, my mother reached out for my arm and pulled me toward her.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
She was never one for hugs, but she held me there.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cHappy Birthday,\u201d she said and squeezed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My fingers felt the soft cleft of her back and there along her spine, the hard nub of a button.
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\u201cNever put clothes in drawer,\u201d Nana scolded me. She had come to visit for my thirteenth birthday. \u201cIf they\u2019re in drawer, how can get out?\u201d She smacked the top of my hand, then made me lift my arms and stuck<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":384,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[],"tags":[21956],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1408"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/384"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1408"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1408\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2061,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1408\/revisions\/2061"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1408"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1408"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1408"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
Patrick Crerand<\/strong> currently lives and writes in Florida where he teaches at Saint Leo University. Recent work of his has appeared in Conjunctions, New Orleans Review, Sentence<\/em>, and other magazines. He is currently at work on a novel about Bingo (the game) and Jesus (the Christ).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"