{"id":184,"date":"2011-01-01T02:09:53","date_gmt":"2011-01-01T02:09:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/requitedarchive.wordpress.com\/?p=184"},"modified":"2021-08-04T19:21:21","modified_gmt":"2021-08-04T19:21:21","slug":"self-portrait-as-double-agent","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/2011\/01\/01\/self-portrait-as-double-agent\/","title":{"rendered":"Self Portrait as Double-Agent"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\u2014to JB<BR><BR><br \/>\nThe ancestors once rode atop floating barrels<br \/>\npainted like horses.<br \/>\nAcross the Atlantic!<br \/>\nTruly, they were straight-backed sportsmen then!<br \/>\nWatching gypsy women<br \/>\nclad in bloomers<\/p>\n<p>and blue-pink paisley scarves wrestle, clawing<br \/>\nhands clutching chestnut hair\u2014skin<br \/>\nparade\u2014fighting for the right<br \/>\nto marry the same man\u2014his hand<br \/>\nmore than just their prize.<br \/>\nA box, papered and bowed,<\/p>\n<p>a mouse glued to the floor inside,<br \/>\nheart beating so hard, goddamn<br \/>\nskin popping of its bones.<br \/>\nMercy Lord.<br \/>\nWho were those men?<br \/>\nTo call for a sword<\/p>\n<p>to pass through the country<br \/>\nand cut loose shopping carts<br \/>\nbicycle rickshaws tattoo artists collectors of stamps\u2014<br \/>\nevery blade pleading, \u2018More Sport!\u2019<br \/>\n\u2018Blood bloom from a brother\u2019s throat!\u2019<br \/>\nUpside down, dangling in slaughterhouse sheds<\/p>\n<p>full of moonshine stills and cobwebbed tack,<br \/>\nwalls still quivering from stomping feet<br \/>\nimaginary hooves and headless cyclists.<br \/>\nStop at all the cross walks\u2014simple<br \/>\npainted lines connecting courthouse steps to<br \/>\nswinging doors of Boy-o\u2019s Salloon\u2014<\/p>\n<p>you want them to hate to see you love\u2014<\/p>\n<p>to go to see you leave.<\/p>\n<p>And the ancestors will shift anxious foot to foot,<br \/>\nbecome the mighty painted Holsteins<br \/>\nchewing cud by the edge of a hay field:<\/p>\n<p>lithe long-legged women with tousled auburn locks.<\/p>\n<p>Predestination is a trick of the trap<br \/>\nthat can never be out-witted.<br \/>\nWe all become the cud.<br \/>\n<BR><br \/>\n<BR><br \/>\n<strong>Mark Gosztyla <\/strong>graduated from the University of New Hampshire&#8217;s MFA program in May of 2009. He&#8217;s had poetry and non-fiction recently published in <em>The Helix, Scarab, Competitor Magazine,<\/em> and <em>Foster&#8217;s Daily Democrat<\/em>. Mark now lives in Somerville, MA and teaches poetry writing at Tufts University. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u2014to JB The ancestors once rode atop floating barrels painted like horses. Across the Atlantic! Truly, they were straight-backed sportsmen then! Watching gypsy women clad in bloomers and blue-pink paisley scarves wrestle, clawing hands clutching chestnut hair\u2014skin parade\u2014fighting for the<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":384,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[9926],"tags":[22084],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/184"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/384"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=184"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/184\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1981,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/184\/revisions\/1981"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=184"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=184"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/libblogs.luc.edu\/requited\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=184"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}